However, I am the only one who knows that I am alive just to wait for the opportunity.

Waiting for that, in my opinion, this life may be a long way off.

… …

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After I returned to the villa, the security work in the villa became tighter, but I knew that the security was not to restrict my freedom, but to monitor the courageous reporters outside.

Everyone in Haicheng knows that Carl and I have this triangular relationship with Deng Frame.

Now, Carl is not afraid to stay with me. Naturally, the interest of journalists has become higher.

Carl and I are always lukewarm, just like a stranger living under the eaves together. Even at night, I can turn a blind eye to Carl‘s insistence on sleeping in my room.

I won‘t say a word more to Carl. I can talk to anyone in this villa, and I won‘t say a word more to Carl.

Carl took pains to chat with me, but I was silent.

I am waiting for the day when Carl can‘t stand it, so that this man can completely leave in front of me.

But I didn‘t wait for this day.

The man I thought I knew very well seemed to have completely changed into a person, and his patience with me was so good that I could not imagine it.

No matter what I did, Carl kept his good temper.

Life is like returning to the time when I was in my apartment. Carl accompanied me and went nowhere.

But I hate this kind of life.

The cycle is depriving me of all my attention and nerves, making my mood tense and in a state of vigilance all the time.

Even, I know very well that my situation is getting worse and worse.

My superficial calmness has not stopped my abnormal manic feeling in my heart. I gradually have various hallucinations.

Even, in the daytime, when I am awake, I can see babbling children, smiling at me and calling me mother.

But when I tried to reach out and pick him up, the child had disappeared.

Not only that, I can also see Pei Zhao, but it is Pei Zhao when we were young. There is no bad memory between us. The rest is the feeling of the most ignorant first love in our youth.

At that time, I was Jiaochen and shy.

Held tightly by the big boy, full of sweetness.

But when I called Peizhao again, Peizhao‘s face became bloody. That was the face of Peizhao I saw in the morgue. Although it had been made up, I could still see the ugliest inside.

But this time, I am not afraid, I just want to hold Peizhao.

However, Peizhao has broken free from my hand and left.

This is only during the day, not to mention at night, the scrolling pictures made me wake up cold and sweaty several times in my sleep.

His clothes were soaked to the skin.

In the past, when I slept, I absolutely didn‘t like any light, but now I, in the dark, see ghosts wrapped around the figure.

My emotions are becoming more and more difficult to control.

Even, I secretly increased the dose of medicine given by the doctor and the tranquilizers I prescribed when my mood was unstable in the early days. These were obtained through special channels.

Several times, I couldn‘t help pouring more tablets. I hope that I will never wake up again.

As a result, every day when it is not dawn, I can still wake up awake.

… …

As usual every day, I mechanically returned to my room.

Every time I returned to my room, it would not take five minutes for Carl to appear. Today, Carl did not appear. I sat indifferent, but I heard Deng Frame‘s long－lost voice under the open door.

I couldn‘t help standing up and walking towards the door.

I just stood at the porch on the second floor and looked at Deng Frame crying with a face, begging Carl.

"We are married, stop, we are married, Rong Er can‘t live without you, you go back and see if he is okay." Deng frame begged Carl, pear flower with tears, "Rong Er is the only blood vessel in Carl family, and you don‘t want Rong Er to have an accident, otherwise you wouldn‘t have wasted so much effort to save him, would you?"