My good mood, I hide very well, but I know very clearly, such a good mood, probably how can‘t hide.

And my swayed by considerations of gain and loss for Carl has become more and more obvious.

However, I am afraid that Carl will discover my lust, thus making everything disappear from me again. The more so, the more I spend every day in this hesitation and sweetness.

Even, I can‘t feel Carl‘s mood.

When I was in the company, even if this person saw me, he was indifferent and could no longer be indifferent. His eyes completely declined on me, as if he had never known me.

However, in private time, Carl was as enthusiastic as fire, but such enthusiasm was only on the mountain of sex. Apart from sex, Carl and I kept a certain distance.

Yes, a distance that looks very close but can never touch each other.

I am really afraid that in such a continuation, I will lose sooner or later.

… …

"Summer, what do you think of this case?" The director asked me.

The director‘s voice interrupted my thoughts. I recovered and quickly found the key point and gave my explanation. The director looked at my eyes with satisfaction.

I breathed a sigh of relief for fear of being seen.

However, the colleagues around him lit cigarettes and kept talking about them.

The small conference room is full of smoke and perfume. On weekdays, I just hate it at most, but I never feel sick like today.

I endured it until I couldn‘t help it. I stood up and hurried to the meeting room.

No one noticed anything unusual.

But my uneasy premonition became more and more obvious. This kind of feeling is too familiar. When I was pregnant before, it was the same. I began to feel nausea and vomiting. By the time of examination, the child had already taken root.

I shook my head： "Impossible."

I looked at myself in the mirror of the bathroom and looked pale and ugly, because I had just vomited hard on the toilet once, and how could I not stop the disgusting feeling.

Carl hasn‘t had any contraceptive measures since I got back together with Carl.

I didn‘t care.

Because, at the time of miscarriage and massive hemorrhage, the doctor had already told me that the uterus was badly damaged and I wanted to get pregnant again, which was simply as difficult as climbing the sky.

I am a person who has already been sentenced to death. How dare I think like this again?

Even Carl knows this.

Otherwise, how could a cautious person like Carl do such a thing? If it weren‘t for my inability to get pregnant, how could I have torn my face so quickly with Pei‘s family?

However, what does this reaction mean now?

My heart trembled for a moment and I did not dare to think about it any more. I just wanted to be verified in the first place.

No matter what the reason is, at least, I want to be sure of my current situation.

I stopped staying and packed myself up and walked out of the bathroom.

At noon, I went to the nearby pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test stick, and then locked myself in the bathroom. I was recalling what my last menstruation came from.

However, I found that it seems that after my miscarriage, my menstruation has never been normal. I can‘t remember at all whether I was here last time or not.

I took a deep breath, looked at the pregnancy test stick in my hand, and quickly tore the package.

I no longer hesitate.

… …

Soon, I looked at the reaction on the pregnancy test stick, and my expression gradually changed from calm to consternation. Because of the obvious two bars above, tell me that this is a pregnancy reaction.

A person who has been sentenced to death by a doctor should be pregnant again at such a fast speed?

I can‘t believe it myself.

My intuition is that there is a problem with the pregnancy test stick.

However, it is impossible that all the sticks I bought have problems one after another.

Under this circumstance, the calm expression completely cracked from my surface.

I know very well that pregnancy is definitely not a happy event but a tragedy for me now. I can‘t take Carl‘s casual remarks seriously.